Dream N

Wanted to watch Terminator 1 (which my dad showed me in when I was young). So dream character was me myself.

I was watching some other movie before that, but when it got immersive, I forgot what it was.

Now, I don't remember how Terminator 1 was. I didn't know if it was the one with the bar fight. So my dream still began reconstructing it.

Arnold walks drives a cruiser bike into the front of a hotel, naked.

And Arnold's body was censored with black bars. I wonder why all dream CDs always censor naked people. Cosmic censor board?

When he gets up and walks in, of course he gets the looks. There are two hallways sections, one the public restaurant, and the inner, I believe was the private dining hall of some gangsters.

I walked in. They asked - [and oh wait - as I was seeing the dream, it was as if I was Arnold himself, and at other times, it was as if I was a spirit watching around him. Let me guess, maybe it was like how you see yourself in 3rd person when you're recollecting memories? But I guess it wasn't so here, because the movie includes the camera movements and so on.] - they asked me to get out.

But I started introducing myself, as a true Terminator. Then for some reason relevant to the story, I sat down on a chair nearby in front of a hall TV, and I started controlling it somehow. Then a guy behind me passed hot soup to someone, and they poured it on my lap. But instead of feeeling any pain, I collected it keeping my thighs close, and took a spoon from the nearby table and drank it.

So they were intimidated, and realized I could not be a human. I also realized that they were unlike the other guys in the bar fight scene, where they would repeatedly attempt to shoot him despite knowing he's an Android, and were smart. And as I started doing more stuff on the TV, they told me that I was on to something, and told me that if you get it fixed, you'll gain a lot of respect.

A lot of signs started coming on the TV, and then I remember panning and scanning a PDF into closer view. And then I remember reading about Nirvikalpa Samaadhi, and that it cannot be attained by ordinary people, and it would require you to isolate into the forest and practice it day and night.

Strange, because I was studying about Advaita Vedanta, but this particular idea, despite it being true, was something that I never read anywhere. I say it's true because firstly its reasonable, secondly, all works of Vedas pertaining to Aikya (oneness) were written in the Aranyaka (Forest) section, and thirdly, the conditions required as per Advaita Vedanta cannot be attained without detaching from societal life, and visiting a monastery.

Now personally I had attained Nirvikalpa Samadhi, but it wasn't by practice, but by grace. I've never been able to attain that by practice. And I'd assume it was because I would put in some effort to understand things. [On that note, I was initially able to get back to that state by meditation. But since I was inexperienced, I flooded my mind with thoughts, and I got back to being a normal human. And only.learning Advaita Vedanta helped me to make sense of what I was experiencing, and also about the pitfalls.]



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